That's the health issue?

I don't have anything to write this morning.

I'm feeling dull this morning and my progress of morning reading was a little. I checked my body fat level and found it's not so high after getting much sugar yesterday. So I had a can of monster energy for securing my blood glucose level.

Yesterday, I felt dizzy after fast reading and meditation. I found that that's a signal of getting worse the next day. And I need a sugary drink to keep my condition after that.

By some chance, I have some health issue?


The secret of fast reading

I have nothing to write for this blog this morning.

I knew what he wanted to say in his book about fast reading. At the first reading, I didn't understand it correctly. But I understood it after trying photo reading.

I need more training for fast reading, but I'll try it anyway.


Getting thin

I have nothing to write for this blog this morning.

The progress of early morning reading was a little. I guessed that my condition was a bit wrong, and I checked my body fat level. It was 17.2%. At the usual bottom, it was around 18.5%. So I'm getting thin.

Yesterday, I did photo reading several books. And I felt dizzy after that. So That was the cause, maybe.

The contents weren't on my consciousness but those were somewhere in my brain. Photo reading needs to pick up the contents onto consciousness intently. But I haven't done that. So I lost the meaning of the reading.


I'm reading The Da Vinci Code

I don't have anything to write for this blog this morning.

I'm reading The Da Vinci Code now. The difficulty in English isn't high and I found that the book is very good for my extensive reading. The story is very interesting too. I'll finish reading 200 pages total by today.

I found somewhere on the web that the smartphone deactivates prefrontal cortex. So I thought that I need to reduce the time for Twitter for my mental health. I know that Twitter is a kind of popular person's media and that it has no means for ordinary people like me. Twitter makes my life more complicated by showing unnecessary things.


It's not the realization, though

I read The Science of Being and Art of Living in Japanese with photo reading six times.

The book describes the meditative guru's world view, not how to meditation itself. After reading it, I meditated as a daily routine and found that I come to have a very flat emotion, especially I reduced the negative emotions in my mind. I was surprised. And my sense of noise was reduced surprisingly. I have literally been suffered from neighbor's noise, but by some chance, I could forget it.

I see myself as a less religious person, in the world view. It was a surprise that I was able to get a sense of wonder with the less religious way and without a medical thing.

This experience is too instant, so I guess it's not a true realization. But I'm stably changing my mind. I can proud of that.


photo reading

I don't have anything to write this morning.

I read a book about photo reading in Japanese. And then I read a book related to meditation with the photo reading technique. After that, I felt bad with my stomach. I wasn't able to recognize the contents on my consciousness, in other words, I wasn't able to read the book normally. But in the photo reading's view, the contents is input into my unconsciousness. I'm not sure that the method is really useful.

I read that I need to practice more, so I'll try it either today.


Meditation, I started

I forgot to write about the meditation which I'm doing recently. I knew that meditation makes frontal cortex more active and that mental illness will reduce by meditation. So I started meditation about a week ago.

I'm doing a kind of mantra meditation which I knew by a book and in the web. Recently I'm becoming mentally sharp enough to read Japanese books very fast. And I'm becoming mentally resilient. I'm also experiencing a mental change with meditation, and I'm becoming not to feel bad in my breast physically when I see the irritative things on Twitter. Or I don't even feel irritated to see that sort of things.


Finished Neuromancer, started The Da Vinci Code

I finished reading Neuromancer, and I'll start reading The Da Vinci Code.

I finished reading Neuromancer. Actually, I wasn't able to understand even the rough story because the English difficulty is a little high for me. So I read it aloud in my mind from the middle of the story and finished it. In English learning perspective, it will be O.K. even though I can't understand the whole contents.

But reading books without understanding is becoming very tough for me. So I'll read The Da Vinci Code next. I was able to enjoy Origin, the same series by Dan Brown, and I guess that I can understand the book.


about yesterday's entry

I don't have anything to write for this blog this morning.

I didn't write enough about the English class I wrote yesterday. I want to write more about the part of "not to drink". I thought that drinking no alcohol is good for our health, and I said: "not to drink." So I'm not wrong about the issue. But the teacher was able to understand that I said: "not too drink." So the teacher who corrected to "not too much drinking" was not also wrong, in her perspective.


1-day English cafe, I attended

I attended 1-day English cafe as I wrote. That was not what I expected.

It was a simple English class with soft drinks. We studied a sample text that teaches "I like to" or "I like -ing" thing. The teacher was Japanese and spoke in English and in Japanese. That wasn't an English-only class. I was disappointed.

We talked about what we like. I like walking. I was asked how long I walk. And the teacher said "distance." I thought that ordinary people don't measure how long they walk and said "distance..." The teacher said like "two kilometers, for example."

And We discussed how to keep us healthy. I said "not to drink", and the teacher said the kind of "not too much drinking, great." I didn't convey what I wanted to say. But I'm not sure whether I'm wrong or she.

I felt a subtle thing on the way to home. In my home, I was reluctant to do anything related to English. What was wrong?


1-day English cafe

I'll attend the 1-day English cafe if I can.

My mother showed me a flyer of 1-day English cafe and encouraged me to attend it. I don't know what the cafe actually is. I guess that's an ordinary Engish conversation class which old persons attend. But I'm feeling needs to speak English as well as to write, and the tuition fee is really cheap 500 yen. So I decided to attend the cafe. I need to call them to keep the seat, though.


the situation is getting worse

I'm feeling better now than yesterday. But I can't find what to do to make money. Totally lost.

Ikehaya, a Japanese influencer, is saying that you need three years to change your mind, that makes sense. I need three years to get the English ability. But I don't have time to prepare. Once I thought that I'll be better after mastering English, but AI made the situation worse. I have lost three years to improve English ability.


I'm lost

I don't have anything to write for this blog this morning.

I woke up late. This morning, I come to think that my daily effort like extensive reading as horning my English ability has no meaning to live in the future world. I wish that I'm wrong. I'm still doing English language training.

I'm lost when it comes to what is valuable. Maybe no ordinary people in Japan know that.


it's too hard

I don't have particular things to write this morning.

I'm wondering about how I live in the near future. Once I thought that I study translation but AI probably made the job meaningless. So the pondering of my income should be restarted from the beginning. Youtube is saying "Don't be bothered to make money" or that sort of things. But nobody is saying what to do. No hint to actual action. Maybe that's video creators' business.

It's too hard for the man in one's 40s.


Restarted Anki

I restarted using Anki.

I forget that I have written about my walking exercise that has a reading break at the convenience store. But the reading break when I read BBC News and The Economist make me feeling status quo. So I decided to memorize the English words at that time with Anki.

Anki is a handy memorizing app that manages my schedule of memorization. Anki is a Japanese word simply meaning "memorization." It's a popular app among Japanese learners of English on Twitter, as well as all overseas people. I already input some words of SVL (Standard Vocabulary List by Japanese publisher) Level 10, around 10,000 words level.

Actually, I have already used the Anki app before. But I gave up it when I realized I need to handle many cards if you get SVL card from public storage of Anki. But I felt the needs of vocabulary building reading many English books. I decide to reuse it.


Finished The Culture Map, started Neuromancer

I finished reading The Culture Map and started reading Neuromancer.

The Culture Map is, as I wrote, saying that I can see your colleagues according to their cultural background. If you are Dutch, your saying about a negative aspect is a little harsh for American colleagues. The book contains that sort of interesting issues. The books difficulty in English is not hard for me, and I enjoyed reading it.

Neuromancer is a cyberpunk classic written by William Gibson. I have read the book in Japanese when I was a high school student, over 20 years ago. The books sentences were difficult for kids even in the native language. But I recently decided to read more novels for vocabulary building in English, so I'll read it anyway.

In my experience, even if I couldn't read a book in English properly, you would be able to clearly read the same level as the book someday by reading the book aloud in your mind anyway. You need to generate the sound of the English sentence in your brain, though.


I'll take SW

I don't have anything to write for this blog this morning.

I decided to take TOEIC S&W (Speaking and Writing) test in April. I don't have a certain plan to win the test, but I'm thinking that I need to take a practice test as soon as possible, as TOEIC L&R (Listening and Reading) test. I already ripped the CD tracks of SW textbook into my iPad, and I'm ready to take the preparation.

I'm aiming S:150/200, W:150/200, but I'm only a beginner. So It's O.K. that I get the below of that. I'm just a beginner of SW.


I'll write in Japanese

I'll write about the TOEIC test I took in Japanese on https://tosh-jp.com/.
Please check it if you can read Japanese.


I'll take the test anyway

Today is the public test day of TOEIC.

I'm reluctant to attend the test suddenly, but losing the tuition fee without taking the test is truly a "mottainai" matter for me. So I'll go to the test venue anyway. By some chance, I may be able to get a good score.

By the way, the testing time is unsuitable for me. the test starts at 1 pm and we need to together 30 minutes before. And I need to leave my home around 10:30 am. And the test ends at 15 pm. From 10:30 am to 15:00 pm. Almost a whole day I need for the test.

I'll take the test anyway.


keeping my condition

I don't have anything to write for this blog this morning.

I'm spending time not to be wrong before TOEIC test on Sunday. I need to keep my condition for the test anyway. But it's my concern to reduce the speed to read English book. Not to be tired, I'm reading less now.

Quality of my writing is a little bad this morning. I'll keep my condition anyway.


I had a rest

I had a rest yesterday because my condition was getting worse. Now I'm fine.

I was in a futon and listened to TOEIC listening part. It was LR3Ttest1 and LR2test2 if my memory works. I'm still not a perfect listener to that.

I also listened to the listening material that I have bought when I have come to think "I'll study English, probably." At that time, it was feeling like a machinegun talk, but now I felt too slow and too easy. I thought that the best policy to study English is never to quit anyway.


Alcohol is the worst

I'm feeling dull. The cause is probably yesterday's alcohol.

I'm not sharp this morning, I wasn't able to read a book in English fluently. And I went to bed again after reading the book. I'm feeling tired and sleepy.

I drank a little and that's the cause of this tiredness. I didn't drink very much, but my performance is suddenly spoiled. Alcohol is the worst thing to have.


Finished willpower, started the culture map

I already finished reading Willpower Doesn't Work, and started reading The Culture Map.

Willpower Doesn't Work is saying that you are what your environment made and pointing out how to establish the circumstances to make it. It has a unique insight for me and I can say that it's one of the best self-help books which I have ever read. Though I haven't read enough amount of self-help books to rate them.

I already started reading The Culture Map. The book is describing that in an international team, you must see your colleague not according to individuality but their cultural background. The interesting point is that American people are less direct critics when it comes to negative feedback compared to the culture of more direct criticism, like Dutch one. On the other hand, they are low-context people that are saying simple and non-indirect things. The book's difficulty in English is moderate for me to understand. I'll finish it after a while.


Too much is the worst

I'm reading the reading part of the TOEIC preparation test.

January's test of TOEIC test is next Sunday. So I'm doing some preparation. I already solved the preparation test. And I found that my grammatical knowledge is enough and that I need to be familiar with TOEIC-like document more. So I decided to read part7 (test for reading documents in English) every day for practice.

But I won't be too hard to do that because, for the September's test, I was suffered from a headache to read part7 materials hard. Too much is the worst.


My nephew returned to home

My nephew returned to his home.

He didn't depend on me about his homework at all. At the first time, I thought that I need to help his assignment, but he never asked me help. He was taught calligraphy by my neighbor who was a Japanese teacher, though.

I sometimes saw him doing homework, but he was almost playing Minecraft when I saw him in his room. Maybe he is controlling his life by himself. I felt he is becoming an adult gradually.

His class is starting from tomorrow.


feeling fatigued

I'm feeling fatigued from the morning.

I reluctant to write this blog, but I thought that not to write at all is the worst policy. So I'm writing this entry anyway. I'm going to do a walking exercise after this, and have an iced coffee at the convenience store. I'm sleepy now.


Finished Digital Age, (already) started Willpower

I forgot to write that I finished reading The New Digital Age and that I started reading Willpower Doesn't Work.

The New Digital Age describes how the computer effects among several social situations, conflict and rebuild from it, for example. As I wrote, the book is old, published 2013, but it has the information what I didn't know. So I could read interested in it.

Willpower Doesn't Work is saying that your environment makes what you are and that you need to change your environment if you want to make a change, according to Introduction. The rest of the book to read is already under 100 pages. And I'll be able to finish it two days later. I'm reading 35 pages a day.


In Minami-Shinjuku

Happy new year. I didn't write this blog for a while.

I went to the new year sale at Kinokuniya in Minami-Shinjuku. I unusually thought that I would buy SF rather than non-fiction. I bought eight books, and it costed about 10,000 yen. I ordered delivery and the books will arrive in this morning. I'm especially looking forward to the works by William Gibson, which I have already read in Japanese when I was a high school student.

My brother's family came to my home yesterday, one of his sons was already here at my home though. Maybe it was a new year greeting but nothing special happened. Simply talked about daily things and ate dinner together.

I'll return to the usual routine from today.